Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Halloween Inspired Pictures

I took some photos yesterday of the babies in their halloween clothes, Emma was not happy!
Carter on the left, Emma on the right
"Hey, quit yelling!"

                                                                 Carter's "serious Mom" face
                                                                   Carter and Grace
                                     Grace wanted us to put Carter in the gift bag, so I did!
                                                                            Baby feet
                                                      Emma on the left Carter on the right
                                                                       Sleepy smiles

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Newborn Photos

Tara from Fresh Face Photography came tonight to take Emma and Carter's photos. She was amazing and already sent me a few teasers pictures. I'm so in love with all of these!

Sunday, October 24, 2010

New Pictures

The doctor's went well this morning and both babies gained weight..yay! We go back on Friday for one last weight check. Now here are some new photos:
Carter embarrased that we have him in a pink blanket
                                                             babies in the baby k'tan
                                                               Jackson and Emma

                                                                    Grace and Carter

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Stitched Up

I went to my OB yesterday and she was able to stitch up my incision. The only down fall is she did it without any novacaine....OUCH!! That hurt so bad, but at least maybe now my incision will start to close and heal. I go back on Friday to have it looked at again.

In other news the babies are doing well. We have a weight check on Sunday, I'm really hoping they are both up in weight!

Thursday, October 21, 2010

2 Weeks

Yesterday Emma and Carter turned 2 weeks old and tomorrow they will have been home 1 week. To celebrate here are  some pictures from the past few days.

                                                                     Emma sleeping
                                                                   Grace and Emma
                                                                 Grace and Carter
                                                                       Carter sleeping
                                                                       two monkeys

They are doing well so far. We are exclusively breastfeeding right now, Carter has gained an oz. as of yesterday, but Emma has stayed the same. They go back to the doctor's Sunday for another weight check. Grace is still adjusting, she loves the babies and always wants to hold them, which is fine except she never lets them sleep.

Monday, October 18, 2010

They're Here!

Ok, well, the babies are here! It's a long story and the details are all getting kind of foggy now, but I'll try my best to make it short!

On Monday, the 4th, I dropped off my 24 hour urine and had labs drawn. I then had to wait until 3pm to see my OB. At the appointment my bp wasn't too high and my protein and labs had gotten worse, but not awful, but since I was having blurred vision, headaches, and was seeing spots my OB sent me back to the hospital. I had more labs drawn, they did a BPP on the babies, which was good, then they did a NST, which was fine as well. They talked about delivery, but decided to keep me over night to moniter instead. Monday night was awful and I got no  sleep. They couldn't keep the babies on the moniter so the nurses were in all night trying to find the babies.

On Tuesday, the 5th, my 26th birthday, they released me from the hospital, but I was to be on strict bedrest. Well, I spent the day/night crying on the couch because I felt to awful. After not sleeping well because of the headaches and blurred vision, I woke Cole up at 7am, sobbing because I felt so awful.

Cole called the hospital and they told him I needed to get there ASAP. We packed as quick as we could and threw Grace in the car in her p.j.'s and Cole's Mom agreed to meet us at the hospital to get Grace. We got to the hospital before 8 am. They got me in bed and the babies on the moniter, they drew more blood. While they were waiting for the results of the pre-eclampsia labs I started having contractions. Well after an hour of contractions I was dilated to 3 cm, so they decided today was the day. They prepped me for surgery. I was only 35 weeks 5 days along and was so scared of the unknown.

At 11am, they wheeled me into the OR, it took a while to place the spinal, but once they did everything moved very quickly. The nurse brought Cole back and at 11:45am Emily Katherine was born screaming, weighing 5lbs 11oz, 18.5 in, with apgars of 6 and 9. Coleman Carter was born at 11:46 weighing 6lbs 2 oz, 18 in, with apgars of 8 and 9. Hearing both babies crying was amazing. They brought each baby over so I could kiss them, then they were taken to the Special Care Nursery. Cole was able to go see them and update me.

Originally Carter needed some oxygen and they both needed some fluids. I wasn't able to see them until 9pm that night. They started me on mag sulfate after delivery. At 9pm I was able to hold Emma, but not Carter. At 4am I got out of bed and walked to the nursery dragging my iv's with me. I was determined to see my babies. I was finally able to hold Carter.

The next few days all blend together..Emma ended up needing to go into an incubator because of her temp. instability, they both needed fluids, and they both ended up with feeding tubes. We tried breastfeeding, but neither baby could really figure it out, so I ended up pumping and they got the breast milk through the feeding tubes. Emma had a few spells were she forgot to breathe while she had a binkie in her mouth.

On my last day there my incision started to look like it was getting infected it, so they started me on antibiotics. I  was released from the hospital on Sunday, the 10th, but since the babies were still in the Special Care Nursery they let me stay in my room until the babies were released.

The babies remained in the nursery for 9 days. Every 3 hours I would go to the nursery, try to breastfeed Carter, then try to breastfeed Emma, then if they didn't feed well I'd give them each a bottle of breast milk, and then I'd go back to my room and pump for 20 minutes. This whole process would take 2 hours or more, then I'd get up for the next feed 40 minutes later to do it all again.

On their last night I was finally able to have the babies room in with me. After 8 days I was finally able to be alone with my babies, what an amazing, emotional experience. We took the babies home on Friday, the 15th, when they were 9 days old. So far they are doing well, they are now nursing well and we aren't having to supplement them. I also have finally figured out how to tantum nurse, which saves a lot of time.

Grace is adjusting. This whole thing has been very hard on her. She wasn't able to see the babies until they were 8 days old, which made everything very difficult to understand. I also was at the hospital for 10 days and wasn't with her at all, which she took pretty hard. Everyone has been so helpful and have been watching Grace for us, but her nap schedule is all over the place, which is making things more difficult for her.

On Wednesday when I had my staples out, while removing them, my incision opened up and started dumping fluids out, so much that it soaked my pants and table. My OB has been packing it daily. I went today and unfortunately my incision is now open 8cm and is 3 cm deep, and is still draining a lot. My OB is hoping to be able to close it on Friday, but can't if it's infected or still draining, so only time will tell. I'm trying to take it easy so that I stop opening it more, but with 2 babies and a toddler it is difficult.

Overall I'm so thankfully that both babies are here and health, but the last few weeks have been an emotional rollercoaster. Having the experince of having premie babies in the Special Care Nursery has forever changed me, it's something I wouldn't wish on any parent. I can't even begin to express the amount of emotions I experienced.

It took a year of trying, 2 months on Clomid, the scare of a vanishing twin, then 9 days in the Special Care Nursery...they truely are miracle babies!

                                                            Carter getting some oxygen
Holding Emma for the first time.
Holding Carter for the first time
Carter's feeding tube.
Emma's feeding tube.
Getting to take our babies home!
Our 3 babies!

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Good and Bad News

I went to the hospital today to drop off my urine and have my labs drawn. While I was there they wanted me to head uo to L&D to check my bp. I went upstairs and they had me lay on my left side and my bp was 100/58, which is very low for me. They checked it again and it was 120/68, perfect! The Dr. on call there wanted me to wait there until they got the urine results back, so the RN had me do another NST, which was fine, and rechecked my bp, 138/78, but this time I wasn't on my left side.

The results came back and my protein is up and my blood work isn't looking great, but the Dr. let me go home on bed rest, but wants me to repeat my urine and bloodwork on Monday. The Dr. also wants me to see my Dr. on Monday morning and depending on how quickly my protein and labs seem to increase we will discuss induction on Monday! Whoa!

So it's still a waiting game, but for right now I'll at least continue to be pregnant until Monday, unless of course the babies have other plans. I can't believe how fast this is all happening. I guess we'll have more answers, hopefully on Monday.

Friday, October 1, 2010

35 Weeks

Dr's Appointment: Well, you already know how that went. Aside from my bp. my OB did the GBS swap and checked my cervix. My cervix is closed but Emma's head is right there! When my OB checked me she was like "wow, this right here is her head! She's certainly head down and engaged!"My waddle must be ridiculous because both my OB and RN, who see pregnant women all day everyday, were commenting on how much of a waddle it is, lovely!
NST: NST went fine, aside from my bp. The RN we had was super nice and actually had a set of twins her self. She said when I walked in she "knew" I was pregnant with twins, before even looking at my chart. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing.
Bed Rest Update: Well today is only day 1 on bed rest and I feel yucky. I'm so swollen that my fingers, feet, and eyes all hurt. I know that is not a good sign, when I got to this point with Grace I was being induced. I was so swollen, hot, and uncomfortable last night that I ended up getting up at 2am to shower to try to cool off and soothe my swollen feet. I also can't believe how much I'm missing Grace already, I guess I never realized how much of my day to day life revolves around her. Cole's Dad is babysitting her today while Cole works. I'm sure Grace is having a blast, I'm just really missing her.  I'm really hoping to keep these babies in this weekend. I'm hoping at the worst I'll wind up on hospital bedrest. The thought of having babies in the NICU makes me a nervous wreck.

How Far Along? 35 weeks

Maternity Clothes? I'm out growing all my maternity shirts and look ridiculous I only have a few shirts and 2 pairs of pants that fit.

Weight Gain? I actually lost 5-6 pounds in the last week, which is weird because I'm so swollen. My nausea has been awful lately, so I haven't really been eating.
Stretch Marks? Yes, getting more every day!

Sleep? What's that?
Best Moment of the Week? Seeing the babies on the u/s on Monday.

Genders? A boy and a girl...Coleman Carter and Emily Katherine

Belly Button In or Out? neither, it's flat & so sore.

Cravings? Nothing really, I haven't been feeling good so I haven't been eating much.

What I Miss? being able to move or sit without feeling like I've just been hit in the crotch with a baseball bat.

What I Love? Feeling both babies move, watching Grace talk to the babies! She now asks me if she can hold the babies, I keep telling her that she'll be able to hold them soon!

What I Am Looking Forward to This Week? Getting the results back from my urine. I'm really hoping these babies can hang on until at least 36 weeks, if not longer.
Milestones? 35 weeks. I have a c/s scheduled for 10-25, but I'm really doubting we'll get there.

Feeling the Babies Move? They aren't really kicks these days, but more rolling.

Other Thoughts? I'm just so happy and thankful to have made it this far. Keep growing babies!