Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Patience is a virtue

that I don't have! I'm sick of waiting, my patience is wearing very thin. It has been four very long months and to be honest it's starting to take its toll on me. I can't help but wonder will this ever happen? Is something wrong with me? Is something wrong with Cole? Is someone trying to tell me something? I need answers! I can't keep racking my brain. How long will this take? Should we have started sooner? Should we wait? I just don't know, it's all so frustrating. Every month counting down the days, every morning taking my temperature at 5:20. Please I need strength to keep trying. How can something I want be so far out of reach. I've tried it all: thinking negatively, thinking positively, I've even tried not thinking of it at all. But in the end it's the same thing, disappointment. You'd think it would get easier with every month, but in fact it gets harder, much harder.


Kristen said...

Ok, so it's a new year and I've got a new outlook. This will be our year! We will make it work and do whatevr it takes. I am fully committed to this!

Trying to be positive!

She She said...

boo :( I'm sad this makes you so sad. I know it's hard but it will all be worth it. Love you!

Kristen said...

Wow, only a month later, and someone must have listened to me. I now need patience to wait 9 months to meet him or her!