Well, it's been a rough few weeks, but I'm back. Almost 2 weeks ago I lost my motivation and was so sick of being close to losing 50 pounds but never hitting it. I went on a bad 4 day eating binge, it was awful and disgusting. I just couldn't get myself together. After the 4 days I had gained back 3 pounds and felt awful!
I had a hard time re-finding my dedication and drive, but I just kept pushing on, hoping I'd find it along the way. The good news is, I did, I found it! I pushed through and it slowly came back. I feel like I'm in a good spot mentally and for the first time in probably ever, I've found the drive to work out.
I started back up with the C25K, I'm on day 3 on week 4, and I still hate it! I just don't enjoy running and it's not getting any easier, but I just keep reminding myself that I'm not doing this to be able to run a 5k, I'm just doing it to burn calories and lose weight, so even if I'm not able to do each run, I am finishing it and getting in a good 30-35 minute work out.
I've also started adding in more exercise routines. I run every other day and then Monday after my run a did a quick 20 minute yoga session. Then last night I had Cole set up cardio circuits for me. He pushed me, and it made me happy, I wanted to quit, but I hung in there. I did a couple minute sprints before and after each set, then after the circuits we boxed, then I sprinted, and then he had me kick box. Then I put the treadmill on the highest incline and manually pushed it with my legs. It was a hard work out, but it actually felt good to push it that hard.
I actually broke down and bought myself a 15 pound kettle bell. I've been hemming and hawing over it for a while now. Cole finally convinced me to order one the other night, so I look forward to getting in some kettle bell work outs once it comes!
Now, if you actually made it this far, thanks for reading! I did manage to lose those 3 pounds I had gained, plus I lost an additional 1.8 pounds! This now brings my total lost to 50.8 pounds! I finally hit the 50 pound mark and couldn't be happier! I still have a long way to go, but I'll get there.